Humbling. Necessary. And HARD to do! You must come to terms with falling away from God. Even if it's just something little, it takes awhile for me, at least, to say sorry for my sins.
It might be something since I'm a perfectionist, that repententance is a lot harder for me than some. I'm also pretty prideful when it comes to life in general. Both of these things I do not generally like about myself. I have taken steps to work towards becoming a better person in these areas.
Today at church I learned that obedience is better than sacrifice and that disobedience is as bad as sorcery. So for me I needed to repent. We also had communion last week and that let me to start down the path of asking for forgiveness for my sins that I have been reluctant to ask for for the last two months.
I believe my next step is to ask for forgiveness for the people that I've hurt recently. Sometimes I say sorry to people just to help them not be mad at me, instead of saying sorry and REALLY meaning it. Ever since I started asking God for forgiveness, my heart has actually been softer towards those that I need to ask forgiveness from.
The lesson for me for this month is to ask forgiveness when I first commit the sin: from God first and then from the person(s) that I wronged. I think this will help me not face as much condemnation and guilt from Satan as I have been continually struggling with throughout my walk.
The verse from church today was 1 Samuel 15:22-23 New Century Version
But Samuel answered, “What pleases the Lord more: burnt offerings and sacrifices or obedience to his voice? It is better to obey than to sacrifice. It is better to listen to God than to offer the fat of sheep. Disobedience is as bad as the sin of sorcery. Pride is as bad as the sin of worshiping idols. You have rejected the Lord’ s command. Now he rejects you as king.”
